Source of Discontent

This is hardly worth posting, yet for a writer who is a perfectionist, it is validated! Some of my posts do not have paragraph breaks, and I have been trying to mitigate this issue, however I have found no success--perhaps this is due to the pain that seizes my head..anyhow, I am writing this in defense of myself--haha--the writings that you read are intentioned to have the breaks, but my computer does not want to respond correctly--I hope you all find the posts most challenging and rich for the soul--may the Lord bless you and keep you, and make His face to shine upon you!

No Greater Love

Every time I endure another level of pain, I am encountered with the thought of what I shall do in this pain..it is naturally a part of the human existence to try and fix the pain, to become frustrated, down, despondent..how do I escape from the madness? Oh, how the Lord is reframing my thoughts within this! And how I rejoice, more and more, when from this pit, my soul arises upon the wings of the Lord! The physical pain may not even change, but my attitude and spirit regarding this pain..does change..it is only through the power of Christ in my being, that I can truly rest in the pain..sometimes understand the source thereof..but if not the understanding, simply being still and knowing that He is God! What profundity lies within the statement that He is God! Be affected by this..daily..by the minute..He is God, the One who gave His only Son to die for us..a people so entrenched in selifishness, self-pity, hatred, bitterness, unforgiveness, jealousy--my stomach turns as I think of it..as I think of the sin in my own life in which the Lord is convicting me! If we are not broken by the magnitude of this sacrifice--the ultimate sacrifice of all time, then we need to plead with the Lord to make it blatantly clear to the core of our natural man! Envision Him as He walked through the crucifixion--pain that no man other than our Savior has felt--in every realm, concerning the physical, the spiritual, emotional and psychological..blood and sweat pouring forth from His brow, a crown upon His head, the weight of the world upon His heart, a Cross to carry and then hang upon...hanging there as the world spit upon Him with rejection..He died for this..He died for this..may this humble us dear souls! I wept today as I was hit like a tsunami with this horror, yet beautiful..how can we then continue on unaffected by our own sin, and that of the world! This is a time to rise up people--fixing our eyes upon the glory that is to come..sit with Him in your pain and ask Him to reveal the jewels that lie beneath the essence of pain..there is ALWAYS a purpose in our pain..the Lord NEVER allows anything within our lives through mere happenstance. He is a God of purpose, destiny, hope, and everlasting life..trust Him today, and rest in His arms..what glory to behold, what magnificence abounds!

Breathless

There are silent screams in my head, veil falling over my eyes and I shutter, I gasp, heart sinks..internal to external, the wailings begin and I cry out for peace! I just want to be ok, I murmur with shaky voice and hand..bells ringing.. The Savior I cling to, His arms of invisible squeeze me, envelope me.. And I know this will pass, as I will learn, I will write.. the passion, the dimension of soul will rise to new levels.. A heart quenched makes for a dry spirit and soul..an inner desert land must be foreign within me.

Septic Soul's Redemption

Rise above sepsis of the mind, the heart! We, as a people, need to realize our depravity apart from our loving God..we are nothing, He is everything..He will break us, He will move us, He will absolutely reveal to us our need for Him..what glory this is to behold, as He transforms our depravity within our cavity..and His life into us..ah, take this in..dance, sing and shout!

Escape from cultural reality, question the indentations of geneological mystery, the complexity of history, the reciprocity of professor and student--there is a great life beyond this temporal mess..but I do not neglect the beauty of this world when Christ is upon our heart's throne, because we then see with His eyes..hearts united as one, the dance of life..life with Christ in eternity is ours to behold if we surrender our humanity upon this earth, in exchange for the explosion of His love and divinity to enrapture us! We must recognize dear ones, that we are by nature, of sinful heart, and we need redemption by His blood..confession and repentance equates to freedom, entrance into another dimension with the Lord! This is hard, simply stated, but worth more than jewels..The more we humble ourselves before our King, the more we realize how holy He is, and the immensity of His love infuses every part of our natural beings!
Above all, KNOW of His love, DRINK of His freedom, and GLORY in The Cross!

Heart Extracted

Strangely enough, Last of the Mohicans grabbed my mind today with an intense parallel that I see for a dear friend of mine..for those who don't know, Last of the Mohicans is, in my opinion, one of the best movies I have ever seen..reasons are plenty, but a vivid and heart-pumping soundtrack is one of them. In one of the scenes, the main bad dude takes it upon himself to grab the beating heart out of one of the soldiers..this scene was intense, to say the least, but has spoken to the depths of my heart.
The Lord our God is a mighty God, jealous for those whom He loves, and aching to know more of His people...to the very core of who we are..I have been quite impassioned as of late with His love, His healing, His provision, and His glory! And this passion ignites the quintessence of my being like a tsunami, a violent storm..I saw the Lord reaching into Your cavity, seizing your heart..the beating, the blood, the beauty..and He, with grace and breathlessness, brought it to His breast and held it there. With eyes closed, serenity upon His face, and fear upon yours, it was all as it should be. Redemption, reemergence, complete renewal..you were desperatly reaching out for it with sweat, tremors across your body..you wanted it back, you wanted it to be as you desired..but the King knew better..your heart in His hands, your life almost dead..oh what glory was to behold, as the Savior with unveiled face reached down and placed His heart into yours..and you thought it was gone..well it is..but you now have a new heart that pulses with the rhythm of Christ Himself, you have been made new, you stand up and you shout because you have been saved..glory, peace, vivacity, intensity..you never thought it could be this good..and the Savior of the Universe pulls you into His majesty and whispers.."You have my heart within you now, run with a new heart that beats, that dances, that sings with purity, life, peace, and grace!" You cannot hold it in..you gasp, you sob, and then you fly with renewed wings like the eagles..You scream, "I am free, truly free!"

No Room For Reason

My answers are not to be found by the reasonings of my own mind, for if I place reliance up0n such falsitites, death of my soul, I will find..yet if I trust upon Christ and His wisdom, freedom and illumination light my way..this is a strange argument as God has equipped us with minds and hearts to reason, to think for our own..if we did not have the capabilities to do so, we would be lost much of the time. I have recently been learning a great deal about what I am actually thinking about throughout the day, and I find that many times I am caught in my dream world, in fantasy, creating a reality of my own, instead of living in the present. The Lord is teaching me a great deal about the beauty in captivity of thought, such that if my thoughts are not glorifying to Him, they are glorifying the enemy..oh come on now, but the more I studied this, the more it has sat on my heart's throne. We try and try to figure things out, to calculate, to justify, to rectify, yet all along, the Lord is sitting peacefully beside us, just waiting for us to give it all to Him! Dear friends, what peace, solitude and contentment has been found as I continue to be diligent within this..the more we become His, the more we surrender the rights to ourselves, and furthermore realize that we are His workmanship--He can do with me whatever He wills--this has taken a great deal of brokenness, as I have battled with sickness of mind and body..The One who sits on the throne loves us exceedingly, and will do what it takes for absolute surrender..do with me what Thou wilt! I long to be His more and more because He has assured me within the eloquence and power of His Word, that His ways are higher than my ways! The Lord promises to do exceedingly and abundantly more than we can ever imagine! Such glory divine..the battle is not ours to fight, but the Lord's--we simply have to be willing warriors :)

Divinity Unfolds

I see the light, but a glimmer of modest shine, presence close to unknown..and I know, I hope for this light to grow, until this reflection of divinity encapsulates every inch and depth of my cavity..infecting every bodily rhythm, furthermore revolutionizing the intentions of my every move, His life's direction!

Take Me As I Am

Take me as I am, down here upon the floor..I am sinking under quickly..these tears have stained my face for far too long, and I have nowhere to go but unto the feet of Your glorious Cross..You meet me here with all that is within me--this confusion,the rage that seizes my soul, that which is trying to steal me away from You! I stand up and say No! My voice cries out.." Let there be nothing that takes me away from You Oh Lord! I don't want the lies to eat at me, I don't want his face to consume me, I don't want my impulsive desires to be my guide! This torment shall not be in vain, for through it, I will help those around who suffer from the reality of the darkness that floods the yes with untruth..this then is how we stand..we must flood our eyes with the truth, the illustrious promises of our Lord--He meets us where we are, and He cries with us. He knows our pain, feels it, embraces us as we feel death at our next sigh. Oh Glorious and Risen Savior! I thank thee for giving me a reason to live. Thank you for placing people within my life who speak truth and promise! My breath is taken away as I meditate upon Your holiness, the death You died to give me new life! I choose to walk in Your freedom, and I choose to fight for You, to fight for my life, and to fight for others!

Victims No More!

We cannot fall victim to the enslavement of our emotions or feelings, those which have imprisoned us in the past or the present! I quite often find myself so desirous of trying to capture a past moment, a person I used to be, a feeling that heightened my emotional state of being..if we are chasing an emotion or a feeling rather than chasing Christ, we are in sin..this sounds harsh, but the Lord has revealed this to me..and through this revelation, I am beginning to find freedom for my mind, my soul--praise Him! We are caught within the trappings of the lusts of the flesh, rather than the truth of Christ. We need to become evermore diligent about applying the Living Word of God to sustain and strengthen the state of our mental affairs! Lay it all down before The King..immediately! His love will envelope our beings, His peace will rush through us like a mighty river, a fiery blaze--woooohoo :) Take captive those thoughts and make them obedient to Christ! Philippinas 4:6 states, "Do not worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank Him for all He has done."

If our souls do not hunger and thirst for righteousness, take a microscopic look at the happenings within your life, both internally and externally! Do not be hesitant to ask, "Lord, why do I hunger not?" The world needs to know Jesus, and it begins with those who have become pierced by His Word, and who can truly utter, "Nothing else matters than knowing Jesus Christ!" As we grow to know Him, may the truth of His beauty, His Majesty, and His sovereignty, ignite the quintessence of our natural beings!

Thy Wondrous Majesty

Oh Lord, Creator of this vast universe..I am forever grateful for Your authority, Your dominion..for without Your holy presence, the human race has no hope, there is no freedom from sin! I am so thankful for Your presence, Your sacrifice upon The Cross! You came to serve, not to be served. Lord, we live in a world where justice is many times forgotten, man is set upon the throne, rather than You, our Almighty Creator! Oh, that we learn to become lovers of You, disciplined in our actions, in our thoughts..teach us to die to ourselves daily. Redeem us Oh God, that Your life in us, would cause man to question His existence, his every breath--that those who don't know You, would encounter a heartache, a brokenness as never before..may they fall prostrate in the realization of Your unfathomable, mysterious love! We are lost without You Lord!