I am really frustrated right now as I feel my eyes convulse, as well as my lips, side effects of the lovely medication I am taking for headaches---chronic headaches I have been suffering from for some time now. I feel very hopeless at this point because I have tried so many avenues... allergists, spiritual healing, copious amounts of prayers, neurologists, healthy eating, chiropractors, naturopathy, accupuncture, ahhhhhhhhhhh, all's I really want to do now is kick and scream and rage, but, what good would that do?
I suppose this is forcing me on my knees...although I admit, all of this makes me bitter towards the Lord, why Lord, oh why can't you make it go away? I have confessed sins, hell, I quit drinking. I think I have cleansed my life. Then, I recently thought about Paul and his thorn in the flesh...maybe that is what is going on in my life. I would ask those of you who read this, that you would keep me in your prayers and thoughts...that God would give me the strength and the hope to remain in this pain, but to have hope for healing, because I have to admit I am quite a pessimist these days, and dammit, my lips won't stop moving..at least they could give me some drugs that would make me feel good---but that wouldn't be good for an addict, now would it? Haha!
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Oh, Deidre! I'm so sorry! You will definitely be in thought and prayer.
I was telling your story to Janae this weekend and about how impresed I am with how you manage it all. I kept saying, "I don't know how she does it". So I guess this is how, partly how, anyway...you ask for prayer.
You have an amazing story, and it's only going to get even more so. Way to be strong. And way to ask for help when you need more strength.
Also, my sister was talking about getting some thorns tattooed on her side, as a reminder of that we all have weakness and that God's grace is enough...but I don't know it'll happen anytime soon, so you can totally steal her idea...
Wow,I was just visiting your blog so I could let you know I'm thinking and praying about you and your headaches, and this new headache blog was here.
I am feelin' ya, sister. I'm so sorry this pain has persisted. It must be exhausting. And like Michelle, I am amazed at your strength.
I totally think tattooed thorns on your side would be awesome. I'll bet there are some amazing thorn designs out there. But mostly, I just pray that you will be relieved of your pain. I am praying, praying, praying for you as I listen to a Moby song called "Lift me Up." I love you, my friend.
PS: I love that you even manage to be funny when you're in chronic pain.
These blog conversations between you, Michelle and I make me really happy. Almost like we're having a girls lunch together... except we're invisible and can only talk for a couple minutes. Still, I LOVE it! You are two of my favorite people on the planet.
Hey missy,
I just learned about a headache clinic that's opening in Vancouver, WA, and wondered if there are any specialists like them down in Truckee. Here's some info on their treatments:
http://realneckpainsolutions.com/atlas.php
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